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Archives for September 2022

Resurfacing

It’s been about 2.5 years since I’ve written on this page, and although nobody’s missing these posts – blogs have been dying for a long while now – I’ve been missing the writing process lately and felt like starting back up. I guess that’s as good a reason as any to restart.

Like every other person in the rest of the damn world, the last couple years have been the roughest of my life. My husband and I split up, I almost lost my business due to the pandemic, my beloved dog Tango passed away from cancer, and I suffered a pretty bad knee injury that’s left me unable to dance, climb, run, jump, and do most of my physical job for the past year. The quadruple whammy of emotional, mental, financial, and physical pain seemed like more than I could handle for a while there.

But also like the rest of the world, I had to figure out how to re-work my life from nearly every angle. I’ve spent a lot of time (and am frankly still working on) prioritizing my needs. I finally got up the nerve to go to therapy. I read this book and am still on this book. I got my nutrition coaching certification that I’d been meaning to get for the past 7 years. I re-worked some things in the business and I’m happy to report it’s still in the black. I’m in a relationship this is healthy and positive… and local. My knee is healing. My bank account is healing. My heart is healing.

No matter what kind of pain it is, a lot of things hurt way more than we think they can. The process of healing feels sometimes just as bad. Healing always takes longer than we want it to and the process is never as linear as we need it to be. It’s one step forward and two steps back for such a long time… until one day it’s two steps forward and only one back. Eventually we start having more good days than bad ones and recognize that we’re getting better. And although the scars left behind will always be there, and the hesitation to try again may scare the shit out of us, hopefully we’ve learned something new from the experience(s) and are ready to do some things differently moving forward. We’re always stronger than we think we are. We keep trying and we keep going.

For everybody else that’s rebuilding their lives, I imagine it feels similar to this period of the pandemic; we may not feel like we’re entirely out of the woods, but we are heading in that direction. We’re learning to live in new and safer ways and, if we’re smart, making a few more contingency plans.

So, now that I’m back on this site, there’s a little updating to do. Bear with me with I update old links and update the look and feel of this space.

I’m still here and I’m looking forward to writing more often. I’m glad you’re here too. Drop your name and blog in the comments if you’ve gotten back on the blogging wagon as well!

Thanks for reading.

~ Ami

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